Some things that will have to happen before I go to college:
1. Rest.
One of the biggest reasons I have no desire to go to school right now is even thinking about it makes me tired, emotionally and physically. I see how hard my friends work and I don't think I have the strength for that right now.
2. Money.
I need to figure out how to pay for it, which I suppose means that I need to find a job that I could stand working while I save.
My current job does not fit that bill.
Also, student loans really, really, really scare me. Really.
3. Research.
I want to go to school for photography - this much I know. Pretty much everything else is up in the air right now. I don't know if I should go to art school or a university, I don't know how my portfolio stacks up against other applicants and I don't even know what part of the country I'd like to be in.
4. Enthusiasm.
This is, by far, the most important ingredient that I'm missing. Once I get excited, I can force myself to make the other things happen. But right now the prospect is more daunting then exciting.
Anyway, this is a short list I've come up with. As I write this, here at work, I'm thinking about how I'd much rather be in a photography class then talking about PCI compliance, and that gets me a little excited about the idea of school.
So, is school in my future? I truly have no idea. In the mean time I'm working on my portfolio and trying to figure out how to get more work and exposure.
So, you know, I guess we'll see.
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2/3/09
Stereotypes at my work.
I got a job at a credit card security company last week. I'm training right now and have been jumping from person to person for one on one time. If you know what I mean. Anyway it feels a little like a movie how hardcore some of the stereotypes are here.
Fuck, having a real job is odd.
Cop Guy.
Heavyset, spiky hair and always exaggerating, Cop Guy is always down to brag about how knowledgeable he is. He went through police academy but didn't end up joining the force because his wife wouldn't let him. He had one experience involving having a gun pointed at him when he was a cadet and talks about it endlessly.
He's what's called a "Scan Tech". That means that he explains the security scans that Security Metrics does. He thinks he's hot stuff knowing about open ports and cgi scripts, but I heard him asking how to install Firefox on his home computer the other day.
Also, he's named after a character in General Hospital.
Motivational Seminar Kid.
22 and ready to make money, Motivational Seminar Kid has a plan. He's always going to seminars involving business and money. He carries a binder around with him all the time containing quotes, papers and dark secrets.
By his desk is a sheet taped to the wall with quotes about paths of least resistance and business metaphors.
Money is success to him, but he doesn't want to be too rich. A cap of 20M is fine for him.
32 Year Old Guy Who Always Sounds Like He's High All The Time.
Yep.
Almost Everyone Else.
Wears PHAT skate shoes and shirts from ether Hollister/A.E. or Skin Industries. Backwards hats are the norm and ping-pong is a way of life.
So that's a brief survey of the people who I work with. Everyone is pretty nice and tech company's are pretty boss to work for, so it could be worse.
Fuck, having a real job is odd.
Cop Guy.
Heavyset, spiky hair and always exaggerating, Cop Guy is always down to brag about how knowledgeable he is. He went through police academy but didn't end up joining the force because his wife wouldn't let him. He had one experience involving having a gun pointed at him when he was a cadet and talks about it endlessly.
He's what's called a "Scan Tech". That means that he explains the security scans that Security Metrics does. He thinks he's hot stuff knowing about open ports and cgi scripts, but I heard him asking how to install Firefox on his home computer the other day.
Also, he's named after a character in General Hospital.
Motivational Seminar Kid.
22 and ready to make money, Motivational Seminar Kid has a plan. He's always going to seminars involving business and money. He carries a binder around with him all the time containing quotes, papers and dark secrets.
By his desk is a sheet taped to the wall with quotes about paths of least resistance and business metaphors.
Money is success to him, but he doesn't want to be too rich. A cap of 20M is fine for him.
32 Year Old Guy Who Always Sounds Like He's High All The Time.
Yep.
Almost Everyone Else.
Wears PHAT skate shoes and shirts from ether Hollister/A.E. or Skin Industries. Backwards hats are the norm and ping-pong is a way of life.
So that's a brief survey of the people who I work with. Everyone is pretty nice and tech company's are pretty boss to work for, so it could be worse.
2/2/09
I mean this empty space.
It's the nights like this that I really enjoy – or at least used to before I had work.
Yes, it's only been a week that I've worked at Security Metrics but it's the principal of the matter. The thing is: it's 3:11 am right now and I feel like I could go on a roll. I've decided to split up Love City into three different blogs and I want to get working on that.
But.
I have to sleep. Curse you cruel world.
On the bright side, working a job like this (while I enjoy learning about Linux & working with 90% cool people) has made me remember how much I don't want to do anything for a career but photography.
Anyway. This is the first post of the rest of my life. Soon I'll be eating, then in bed. You, however might be interested in my photography portfolio website.
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