Some things that will have to happen before I go to college:
1. Rest.
One of the biggest reasons I have no desire to go to school right now is even thinking about it makes me tired, emotionally and physically. I see how hard my friends work and I don't think I have the strength for that right now.
2. Money.
I need to figure out how to pay for it, which I suppose means that I need to find a job that I could stand working while I save.
My current job does not fit that bill.
Also, student loans really, really, really scare me. Really.
3. Research.
I want to go to school for photography - this much I know. Pretty much everything else is up in the air right now. I don't know if I should go to art school or a university, I don't know how my portfolio stacks up against other applicants and I don't even know what part of the country I'd like to be in.
4. Enthusiasm.
This is, by far, the most important ingredient that I'm missing. Once I get excited, I can force myself to make the other things happen. But right now the prospect is more daunting then exciting.
Anyway, this is a short list I've come up with. As I write this, here at work, I'm thinking about how I'd much rather be in a photography class then talking about PCI compliance, and that gets me a little excited about the idea of school.
So, is school in my future? I truly have no idea. In the mean time I'm working on my portfolio and trying to figure out how to get more work and exposure.
So, you know, I guess we'll see.
This sounds like how I was feeling before I went to grad school.
ReplyDeleteRest - One of the big reasons I didn't go right after undergrad.
Money - You *should* be scared of student loans. ;) (My monthly loan payment is almost double your rent.) It's too bad there isn't some sort of pay-as-you-go option.
Research - Did you ever re-apply to that photographers forum? They might have some good advice regarding your portfolio.
Enthusiasm - This could have to do with #1, as well.
No, I haven't reapplied to that forum yet. I feel like I've got a lot of options/things to do for photography right now, but they all take a certain amount of concentration. Right now I'm trying to get a physical portfolio together, after that maybe I'll go for that forum again.
ReplyDeleteI think enthusiasm has to do with rest too. I'm just not sure how to get enough rest again.
The thing about money is I really, really don't want to have a huge amount of debit hanging over my head. Photojournalism is not going to be a lucrative career and I don't want to have to pick stories based on how much I think I'll make.
Have you thought about asking Mom's advice on getting more rest / energy?
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